this week was another tiring week but whatever i got through it. i'm excited for tomorrow because i'll finally watch the resident evil movie that i've been looking so freaking forward to for months. yay

also i got to call with my boyfriend today so i'm happy about that. he's my bffie i missed him so much

oh yeah on tuesday i got my precious moments order, it's super cute i wanna get more 

i hate everybody

this week i did not have a single day where i completely stayed at home. ugh idk, i'm tired of everybody like i just wanna die already and not have to see anyone's faces anymore. everybody is soooooo fucking annoying they all have to be executed seriously. and now tomorrow i'm gonna deal with more bullshit again ughh i hate you all

today was a mess. ok so after my first class today i basically had a nearly 5 hour break. so my friend and i went to the canteen, i just got some fries since it was still early. then we went to the library to work on an assignment. i guess i forgot to eat lunch or kinda just brushed it off because after PE class, on the way to my next class, i had to take a break on these seats. well i always do since these super tiring stairs have a spot halfway where you can sit. but i really really had to take a break this time because i felt so close to vomitting. i was just trying really hard not to by breathing in and out (welp that was the only thing i could do). and then after a few minutes my vision started getting really blurry and unclear and then my hearing became muffled or kinda quiet. i really felt like passing out and i thought i was just gonna have to skip my last class for that day. but i just accepted that i was gonna be late and asked my friend to message our classmate that we'd be late cause we felt unwell. anyway yeah i survived and bought turon after. i think the first sign that i was gonna be unwell later was when otw to PE class i felt my legs shaking a bit or it felt weak. 

welp that's over now. k bai

sunday scaries

 not much happened today. i, for some reason, did feel sick in my stomach. i dunno why that is like it wasn't a physical problem, it was more of an anxiety problem but yeah. i visited my tita in the hospital then after my mom and i went to the mall. i bought clickeez cause i saw they had the ones that sounded like a creamy keyboard. i always thought clickeez were cute but i didn't buy them earlier before cus well they were only clicky sounding. i also ate at din tai fung for the first time. it was okay. 

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 goodmorning ginny welcome to friday

i just called with my handsome wonderful mouthwateringly sexy funny cool boyfriend #YAAAYYY

also i wasn't able to write a diary entry on this blog last night because i fell asleep early and was too lazy to do so earlier. but nothing much happened yesterday anyway, just some online classes. then today i did some homework in math. i kinda answered a part that wasn't included to be answered so i hope that won't be a problem... i just put some correction tape over that portion but idk if my professor will make it a whole deal or what. cause according to my other friend who also has that prof for the same class, they all answered an extra part that wasnt included in the instructions and she got mad about it. soooo yeah... but whatever... 

later me and my dad and i think my mom ? idk im still confused if she'll be back today or tomorrow from her business thing - but yes later, we will eat dinner somewhere yummy and i think we will also be having some salmon sashimi yaayyyy im super excited.

k bai

the dusty air is getting in my lungs

 ok so! today was uhh not as bad as i expected. classes did end early by like one period because the mayor suspended classes due to the really bad air pollution right now. it is really bad today i could visibly see it and i could feel it Affecting me inside my body. so yeah air pollution bad but okay early dismissal !! then tomorrow we'll have online class. ugghhhhhhhh. i'll never really know which one i prefer: f2f or online. f2f sucks cause i gotta get out the comfort of my own home and go to hell and be surrounded by a bunch of people. and then online sucks because it's just so draining despite being in my own space. school sucks either way.

last night my mom got me a sonny angel the birthday bear series one, and i got the yellow bear with a balloon it's really cute i'll post pics of it soon when my cam is fully charged. she also got me those sonny angel sticker packs. idk where to put it though cause it's super cute and these stickers are pretty expensive for stickers. but if i don't use them now then i will probably end up never using them and it will be too late. so i'll find a spot to stick them on.

i'm gonna watch pen15 now.

k bai

university sucks

 today i woke up with a sense of impending doom. mostly because i was anxious about this one class with this one prof. she isn't like terrifying or anything... but idk when it comes to classes with teachers that really wanna interact with you i just feel sick. i always just get anxious about what to say and i get an uneasy feeling that will not go away until the class is over. anyway, that sense of impending doom disappeared right before i entered the gates of the school because our class recieved an email from that professor saying she'd be absent because she's sick. get well soon!

tomorrow is gonna be another idk day. i have a quiz first thing in the morning, i already studied. Monday and Wednesdays have easily become my least fav days of the week ughhhhhhh. there's just so much going on. and it's so inconvenient to change from my uniform to the pe uniform. like what the hell just let me change shirts or something, what the hell are you making me change whole outfits for ITS SO ANNOYING. we don't even have lockers to keep our shit like i really just gotta carry this with me building to building like i'm a highschool chud. Okay.

topic change, i do not feel spiritually connected to my letterboxd top 4 favorite films right now. i have to spend some time to find personal 5 star rated movies that i feel can truly take a spot in my top 4. idk when i can do that though. it's gonna take some time and i don't know if i have all that right now. but i'll see.

k bai 

nothingburgerday

 today was a whole nothingburger. i didn't really do much other than worry about school for a bit and miss my boyfriend a whole lot. i really tried to savor today as much as possible because it's the last day of a long weekend, and the next time i wake up, i'm gonna have to go to school sigh... 

i've been listening to The Peace by underscores and I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing by Aerosmith a lot lately. i've also been thinking about Secretary (2002) a lot, i'm thinking about rewatching it. it's a really good movie. 

my 18th birthday is coming up this october so i really have to start planning i guess... i feel a bit neutral about it because the only thing i knew i really wanted to do was watch a movie, but plans changed i Guess so my mom doesn't wanna do that anymore yeah ok. instead we're just gonna celebrate at some venue. i really don't want the whole program i just wanted to chill with friends but if we're gonna have like around 50 people then like... we need a program cause otherwise it's gonna be a freaking boring mess ugh... whatever... my birthday falls on the last day of this school sports event week too so like idk how that will turn out. i hope it turns out well. ok that's all, i'm gonna finish my blog up and then maybe rewatch Secretary then go to sleep. 

k bai